01 June 2010

Pieces #7: Observation

Sis,

These couple of days I’ve been trying to observe myself. Haha, maybe it’s influenced by the "Methods, Technique, and Data Analysis for Field Research" course that I’m doing this period. It’s a super intensive course with endless readings and (individual and group) assignments. I’m very lucky to have wonderful people (Tanya and Elisa) in my group.

I observed that I feel better after a shower. I really feel refreshed after cleaning my body and my soul. Haha, I think the water was able to clean my soul and negative thoughts as well… I also feel better when I put on nice outfit, it doesn’t mean that it’s a branded or expensive clothing, but an outfit that suits me and comfortable to wear. Somehow I feel more confident and ready to seize the day!

I observed my virtual life is demanding more space in me. I realized that today as the Internet connection is broken in my student house. I felt an empty space... well it was also a quiet Sunday afternoon, I'm alone in the corridor. The virtual life was one way to make me feel that I’m not alone—that I have those virtual lives of other people around me, on my laptop screen.

Then I continued reading some random articles with the hope to get inspiration for my Thesis. It was in an extremely slow pace because my mind was going here and there, couldn’t really focus! Then, I took a shower and decided to write down my observations upon myself.

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Oh, one more thing Sis, I just found this academic writing that may relate to my writing above: Emile Durkheim proposes that the individual and the collective state of mind are within all people and that there is a constant struggle between these two states.


BIG HUGS,