Sis,
These couple of days I’ve been trying to observe myself. Haha, maybe it’s influenced by the "Methods, Technique, and Data Analysis for Field Research" course that I’m doing this period. It’s a super intensive course with endless readings and (individual and group) assignments. I’m very lucky to have wonderful people (Tanya and Elisa) in my group.
I observed that I feel better after a shower. I really feel refreshed after cleaning my body and my soul. Haha, I think the water was able to clean my soul and negative thoughts as well… I also feel better when I put on nice outfit, it doesn’t mean that it’s a branded or expensive clothing, but an outfit that suits me and comfortable to wear. Somehow I feel more confident and ready to seize the day!
I observed my virtual life is demanding more space in me. I realized that today as the Internet connection is broken in my student house. I felt an empty space... well it was also a quiet Sunday afternoon, I'm alone in the corridor. The virtual life was one way to make me feel that I’m not alone—that I have those virtual lives of other people around me, on my laptop screen.
Then I continued reading some random articles with the hope to get inspiration for my Thesis. It was in an extremely slow pace because my mind was going here and there, couldn’t really focus! Then, I took a shower and decided to write down my observations upon myself.
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Oh, one more thing Sis, I just found this academic writing that may relate to my writing above: Emile Durkheim proposes that the individual and the collective state of mind are within all people and that there is a constant struggle between these two states.
BIG HUGS,
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01 June 2010
15 May 2010
Pieces #6: Book for Zabi
Sis,
Yesterday I was in Utrecht with Mba Djummy, a good friend of mine who has been in the Netherlands in the past 3 weeks for a media training in Hilversum. She will return to Jakarta tomorrow. It was a nice sunny day with some chilly winds. We had a Dutch lunch of Harring and Kibbeling with Bread in Utrecht Open Market, visited the Money Museum, walked around the Dom, had doner for dinner, and a drink in Florin.
Photo facility in the Money Museum
I gave a book to Zabi from the snack bar in Utrecht. Zabi was the chef who said to me that I am a nice girl because I was reading a book. He was a bit surprised. The book is in Dutch, and has the word 'voetbal' on the title. I don't really know what the story is about. It's quite small and not a long read. As we left the snack bar, Zabi said that he likes the book (I guess he read some pages already...). "Good luck Zabi and see you around!"
Sis, it was a nice day!
Yesterday I was in Utrecht with Mba Djummy, a good friend of mine who has been in the Netherlands in the past 3 weeks for a media training in Hilversum. She will return to Jakarta tomorrow. It was a nice sunny day with some chilly winds. We had a Dutch lunch of Harring and Kibbeling with Bread in Utrecht Open Market, visited the Money Museum, walked around the Dom, had doner for dinner, and a drink in Florin.
Photo facility in the Money Museum
I gave a book to Zabi from the snack bar in Utrecht. Zabi was the chef who said to me that I am a nice girl because I was reading a book. He was a bit surprised. The book is in Dutch, and has the word 'voetbal' on the title. I don't really know what the story is about. It's quite small and not a long read. As we left the snack bar, Zabi said that he likes the book (I guess he read some pages already...). "Good luck Zabi and see you around!"
Sis, it was a nice day!
Pieces #5: Post-Test
Sis,
It's been ages since my last Pieces Mission for you.
So, I managed to pass "The Test of Life" ... It was tough Sis, I did not pass it with 'flying colors', just an average mark. As I reflect on the day of the 'test', I was too busy being sad and forgetting to give support and encouragement! I will correct that in future life.
Well, I am feeling better these days, the old trick of keeping myself busy and having people around kinda help. Of course a bit splash of sadness as memories flashing in my head every now and then... quite human I guess ?!?
Everything happens for a reason. I believe that there are good reasons for the brief encounter. Since I see to live is to learn, I want to believe that it was for me to continue learning the other side of life--the side that I've been putting aside. The side that is colored with good heart, peaceful mind, and sincere act. I learn more about myself, to be a better Steisi for others and for herself.
Off you go to your new chapter.
Best Wishes and Thank You!
PS. Sis, thanks for all the prayers!
It's been ages since my last Pieces Mission for you.
So, I managed to pass "The Test of Life" ... It was tough Sis, I did not pass it with 'flying colors', just an average mark. As I reflect on the day of the 'test', I was too busy being sad and forgetting to give support and encouragement! I will correct that in future life.
Well, I am feeling better these days, the old trick of keeping myself busy and having people around kinda help. Of course a bit splash of sadness as memories flashing in my head every now and then... quite human I guess ?!?
Everything happens for a reason. I believe that there are good reasons for the brief encounter. Since I see to live is to learn, I want to believe that it was for me to continue learning the other side of life--the side that I've been putting aside. The side that is colored with good heart, peaceful mind, and sincere act. I learn more about myself, to be a better Steisi for others and for herself.
Off you go to your new chapter.
Best Wishes and Thank You!
PS. Sis, thanks for all the prayers!
11 April 2010
Pieces #4: The Test of Life
Sis,
It's been quite sometimes since my last writing to you.
Spring has arrived they say, flowers are blossoming and that beautiful Cherry Blossom (white, pink, pink-red) are here in Wageningen. I had a nice walk with Astrid this afternoon to the Forest of Wageningen and on the way back we took 2 branches and they are now in my room. Their beauty is helping me to go through this test of life...
I may unable to share it with you yet about this test of life. As time goes, I'm pretty sure I will be able to unpack it better.
A friend once reminded me Sis, 'What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger' and I suppose more or less it is in line with what we've been understanding from our religion 'You will not be tempted/tested beyond what you are able.' So, I will eventually pass this test and be a better Steisi.
I feel that already now, I understand more of life. I told Ma last time on the phone, that after 24 years, I finally understand what you all (Pa, Ma, Sis) have been trying to tell me about 'taking time to relax', about your concerns that I'm always busy doing this and that, about my weird feeling that I always have to do something--even in the weekend or in holidays, about 'being present for other people.' I finally understand... after living life here in Wageningen.
Over skype, I've just talked about it with my best friend, Mariana.. and she comforted my soul by telling me that life loves me very much! Because life is teaching me all those things by giving me this test. The test itself may involve tears and sadness, but the learning process before the test are filled with laughters and happiness, but the learning process are filled with understanding and affection.
The test is coming soon... They say it is common to pass such test with an average mark, because it is usually hard for everyone. Tears and sadness if they may come, let it be for the day of the test. But, for now I want to continue learning, learning, and learning...
Thanks Mariana, Fenni, Astrid! 11 April 2010.
Until next post Sis!
It's been quite sometimes since my last writing to you.
Spring has arrived they say, flowers are blossoming and that beautiful Cherry Blossom (white, pink, pink-red) are here in Wageningen. I had a nice walk with Astrid this afternoon to the Forest of Wageningen and on the way back we took 2 branches and they are now in my room. Their beauty is helping me to go through this test of life...
I may unable to share it with you yet about this test of life. As time goes, I'm pretty sure I will be able to unpack it better.
A friend once reminded me Sis, 'What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger' and I suppose more or less it is in line with what we've been understanding from our religion 'You will not be tempted/tested beyond what you are able.' So, I will eventually pass this test and be a better Steisi.
I feel that already now, I understand more of life. I told Ma last time on the phone, that after 24 years, I finally understand what you all (Pa, Ma, Sis) have been trying to tell me about 'taking time to relax', about your concerns that I'm always busy doing this and that, about my weird feeling that I always have to do something--even in the weekend or in holidays, about 'being present for other people.' I finally understand... after living life here in Wageningen.
Over skype, I've just talked about it with my best friend, Mariana.. and she comforted my soul by telling me that life loves me very much! Because life is teaching me all those things by giving me this test. The test itself may involve tears and sadness, but the learning process before the test are filled with laughters and happiness, but the learning process are filled with understanding and affection.
The test is coming soon... They say it is common to pass such test with an average mark, because it is usually hard for everyone. Tears and sadness if they may come, let it be for the day of the test. But, for now I want to continue learning, learning, and learning...
Thanks Mariana, Fenni, Astrid! 11 April 2010.
Until next post Sis!
05 April 2010
Pieces #3: Breathing while Drowning
Sis,
I went to Rotterdam and Delft today. It was worthwhile! Rotterdam took my breath away--the city is so full of surprises of architecture/art works! Fenni and I, we made this one liner for Rotterdam: "Tak Mau Sama (Say No to Same)."
All sort of buildings (city hall, apartment, train station, office building, museum, etc.) have their own distinguished architectural style that makes a bold statement! I say it's a heaven on earth for those passionate people on urban buildings architecture. Also, Rotterdam is a bustling city, the traffic in the big streets, reminded me a bit of Jakarta during the normal hours (not rush hour).
Delft, 15 minutes trip by train from Rotterdam, was a quiet city; probably because it was the second day of Paska and it's a national holiday! The small canals between houses/restaurants/shops reminded me a lot of Utrecht...
Well, let it be a short writing this time Sis! I'm a bit drowning with paper works and study stuff as well at the moment... I hope I can emerge and swim through these waves!
HUGS
I went to Rotterdam and Delft today. It was worthwhile! Rotterdam took my breath away--the city is so full of surprises of architecture/art works! Fenni and I, we made this one liner for Rotterdam: "Tak Mau Sama (Say No to Same)."
All sort of buildings (city hall, apartment, train station, office building, museum, etc.) have their own distinguished architectural style that makes a bold statement! I say it's a heaven on earth for those passionate people on urban buildings architecture. Also, Rotterdam is a bustling city, the traffic in the big streets, reminded me a bit of Jakarta during the normal hours (not rush hour).
Delft, 15 minutes trip by train from Rotterdam, was a quiet city; probably because it was the second day of Paska and it's a national holiday! The small canals between houses/restaurants/shops reminded me a lot of Utrecht...
Well, let it be a short writing this time Sis! I'm a bit drowning with paper works and study stuff as well at the moment... I hope I can emerge and swim through these waves!
HUGS
03 April 2010
Pieces #2: Nice Girl
Sis,
It was a beautiful sunny day!! I went to Utrecht to join a Jumat Agung (Good Friday) ceremony in one of the Catholic Church there. I walked around the city center after the ceremony and before Toastmasters. This was my first time walking around the artistic city of Utrecht even though I go there every now and then to visit Bulang Utrecht or every 2 Fridays of the month for Utrecht Toastmasters evening. I really enjoyed it! The city is a lovely 3D picture of canals, small alleys, compact houses, churches, bicycles, people sitting or chatting under the sun!
Afterward, I sit in a snack bar nearby the Toastmasters venue in Nobelstraat, eating my dinner (lamshoarma and patat) and continued reading the "Winner Stands Alone" -- Paulo Coelho. The guy behind the counter who was also the 'chef' was nice and polite. He came from Afghanistan and has been struggling from day to day in the Netherlands for 9 years now! He speaks fluent Dutch and quite good English. I practiced a bit of Dutch with him.. :) He said Indonesia is a beautiful country, yet I was unable to make a good remark about Afghanistan... He also said that he is not thinking of going back to Afghanistan because his parents dislike him. Wow Sis! I was unable to think of any proper response to that remark and I just put a sympathetic smile on my face...
While I was reading, he came and said "You're a nice girl! You're reading. I like to see nice girl instead of bad ones..." He went on saying that he works on weekdays to get money and then spend the money to have fun and alcohols in the weekend. He said he doesn't read books and he was praising me because I was reading. Sis, the moment I heard 'nice girl', my mind went to those similar remarks I've received my entire life from people, especially men... hahahaha.. Well, you know these stuff Sis!
Well... I was thinking, probably I could find him a nice, simple, and short book and drop it by for him when I go to Utrecht Toastmasters next time.
Maybe a good idea rite Sis?!
Hope you're well! Till next post...
It was a beautiful sunny day!! I went to Utrecht to join a Jumat Agung (Good Friday) ceremony in one of the Catholic Church there. I walked around the city center after the ceremony and before Toastmasters. This was my first time walking around the artistic city of Utrecht even though I go there every now and then to visit Bulang Utrecht or every 2 Fridays of the month for Utrecht Toastmasters evening. I really enjoyed it! The city is a lovely 3D picture of canals, small alleys, compact houses, churches, bicycles, people sitting or chatting under the sun!
Afterward, I sit in a snack bar nearby the Toastmasters venue in Nobelstraat, eating my dinner (lamshoarma and patat) and continued reading the "Winner Stands Alone" -- Paulo Coelho. The guy behind the counter who was also the 'chef' was nice and polite. He came from Afghanistan and has been struggling from day to day in the Netherlands for 9 years now! He speaks fluent Dutch and quite good English. I practiced a bit of Dutch with him.. :) He said Indonesia is a beautiful country, yet I was unable to make a good remark about Afghanistan... He also said that he is not thinking of going back to Afghanistan because his parents dislike him. Wow Sis! I was unable to think of any proper response to that remark and I just put a sympathetic smile on my face...
While I was reading, he came and said "You're a nice girl! You're reading. I like to see nice girl instead of bad ones..." He went on saying that he works on weekdays to get money and then spend the money to have fun and alcohols in the weekend. He said he doesn't read books and he was praising me because I was reading. Sis, the moment I heard 'nice girl', my mind went to those similar remarks I've received my entire life from people, especially men... hahahaha.. Well, you know these stuff Sis!
Well... I was thinking, probably I could find him a nice, simple, and short book and drop it by for him when I go to Utrecht Toastmasters next time.
Maybe a good idea rite Sis?!
Hope you're well! Till next post...
31 March 2010
Pieces: try-out
Sis,
Let's try out the Pieces Mission. I guess you know couple of reasons why I would like to do this mission.
You know I've always been amazed with inspirational readings or movies, for example my love in Paulo Coelho's novels. Sometimes those words have huge effect on me and really improve how I see life and how I see myself. So, I've always been wanting to be a writer as well...someday. To be able to share my thoughts with others through writings that can help other people, one way or the other...
You know I've always had this unique way of digesting events, conversations, and emotions around me. My brain is constantly working to link many things in life. Maybe that's why I often look restless and it is hard for me to stay still and relax. Well, maybe it's about time to write down those thinking, maybe it's useful, maybe not, maybe it even doesn't make any sense... but I'll never know if it's only inside my head...
You know I've always like to have something happening in my life. Organizing this, leading that, attending this, meeting with those people on this and that... Well, I guess I'm kinda loosing that hectic life here in Wageningen. And, for some reasons I chose to do that. Yes, sis, I am operating like a different Steisi here. You must have been laughing out loud if you see how I was struggling not to do anything here.. how I exercise to say NO to several offers to organize this and that. So, I guess, this Pieces Mission should be do-able and not really making myself busy (I still can exercise myself to chill and enjoy the beauty or the mystery in every minutes of life), but I still feel like doing something...
You know I've always loved you and maybe you'll be the only person in this planet whom I can be the 'real weird Steisi' (yeah... all those clumsy, funny, sad, fun moments Sis). So, I guess it's also nice to share the Pieces with the world; with whoever feel like reading our 'one and only' sistership through this Pieces Mission.
So, this is the try-out edition of the Pieces Mission. I wrote you a message on your facebook inbox about this mission. Let me know what you think about it Sis!
HUGS
Let's try out the Pieces Mission. I guess you know couple of reasons why I would like to do this mission.
You know I've always been amazed with inspirational readings or movies, for example my love in Paulo Coelho's novels. Sometimes those words have huge effect on me and really improve how I see life and how I see myself. So, I've always been wanting to be a writer as well...someday. To be able to share my thoughts with others through writings that can help other people, one way or the other...
You know I've always had this unique way of digesting events, conversations, and emotions around me. My brain is constantly working to link many things in life. Maybe that's why I often look restless and it is hard for me to stay still and relax. Well, maybe it's about time to write down those thinking, maybe it's useful, maybe not, maybe it even doesn't make any sense... but I'll never know if it's only inside my head...
You know I've always like to have something happening in my life. Organizing this, leading that, attending this, meeting with those people on this and that... Well, I guess I'm kinda loosing that hectic life here in Wageningen. And, for some reasons I chose to do that. Yes, sis, I am operating like a different Steisi here. You must have been laughing out loud if you see how I was struggling not to do anything here.. how I exercise to say NO to several offers to organize this and that. So, I guess, this Pieces Mission should be do-able and not really making myself busy (I still can exercise myself to chill and enjoy the beauty or the mystery in every minutes of life), but I still feel like doing something...
You know I've always loved you and maybe you'll be the only person in this planet whom I can be the 'real weird Steisi' (yeah... all those clumsy, funny, sad, fun moments Sis). So, I guess it's also nice to share the Pieces with the world; with whoever feel like reading our 'one and only' sistership through this Pieces Mission.
So, this is the try-out edition of the Pieces Mission. I wrote you a message on your facebook inbox about this mission. Let me know what you think about it Sis!
HUGS
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