I delivered this speech one hour ago in Bonn International Toastmasters Club. At the end of the speech, together with the round of applause from the-always-supporting people in Toastmasters, I felt so nostalgic of my FUNtastic time with my previous boss, Pawan Patil, in the World Bank Office Jakarta. I would like to share the speech with you--readers.
Back then in July 2009, we never had the chance to throw Pawan a farewell party. But, I've always wanted to have the honor to convey this speech to him!
In the beginning, I asked the Host of the evening to inform the following to the audience:
"For Steisi's speech, I would like to briefly introduce the context. We are all Steisi's colleagues at work, in World Bank Office Jakarta. This afternoon is a farewell party to Steisi's Boss and our colleague, Pawan Patil, a senior economist and a committed advocate of Youth Issues in the office. Pawan finished his term after 5 fantastic years in Indonesia. He will start a new journey in Doha, Qatar, Middle East Region."
So, here’s the text of my prepared speech (I was delivering the speech without notes):
Wonderful colleagues and friends,
This is not an easy afternoon. I say I prefer one of those busy working days, staying up late in the office, finalizing PowerPoint presentations or policy papers for early meeting with government people//
Why is this not an easy afternoon? Because I have to stand here and address 3 people: My boss, my life mentor, and my good friend. All with the same name: Pawan Patil//
Pawan, when people ask me why I am working in the field of youth development and why I’m so passionate about it, I will tell them it’s your fault!//
It’s because two years ago, there was someone named Pawan Patil, a huge believer in Youth issues, who welcomed me in his team in this office. Back then, I was just finishing my studies in Food Technology, but you spotted that flickering fire in my eyes, that youth energy in me, and my longing to work in the field of development//
You set the bar high in my expectation for future bosses. You are very articulate and your enthusiasm is contagious. I have never remembered leaving your office without feeling excited and motivated to ‘get-going’, to do some action, to get the work done. You brought me to various meetings, even to those high-level meetings, and you introduce me to people. You successfully brought President Martti Ahtisaari on board for our Youth Employment project. You invited me to join meeting wih him! As a young person who is starting my career in the field of development, that means a lot! You welcome critical feedback and you gave me this wonderful advice that I will never forget:
“Steisi, at any time, in those meetings, projects, or events, always think: “How can I do this differently? How can I do this better?”
You are my life mentor. You are a big champion of work-life balance and life-long learning. You put family first! In any stressful situation, I witnessed you picking up those phone calls from your kids, with a cheerful tone. Whenever appropriate, you shared that you are a big fan of your wife and that she is the engine that keep you moving! You were a great supporter of my dream to go to grad school. I still remember that one evening after I got admitted to a grad school, we were sitting in front of the computer screen sending emails to scholarship foundations… and one month later we were talking over the phone literally screaming in joy because they accepted my application! At that time you said:
“Steisi, continue doing that in your future life: do your homework, think strategically, and ask people specifically what they can do to help you. People would love to be part of your endeavor.“
You are a good friend. You are fun to hang out with! We always had fun discussions and creative ideas over lunches or coffee times… One time we submitted this creative idea for an IT competition and we got third prize!! You invited me for a Christmas dinner with your family and we had nice-flowing conversations//
Pawan, all of us here are excited with your new journey in the Middle East region. The region has a huge challenge of Youth Unemployment and you have decided to take that challenge! It is a big loss on our side, but, I would like to see it in the way that the other part of the world needs you… Your energy, enthusiasm, and expertise in the field of youth development//
I can never thank you enough for the most inspiring 2 years of my life. All I can do is paying it forward. In my dictionary the word Goodbye does not exist, only ‘see you later’. So, see you later Pawan, my boss, my life mentor, and my friend//
End of speech
18 November 2010
21 October 2010
Spot the 'G'
As published in Resource Magazine (for Wageningen University students and employees), 20 October 2010.
Any Indonesian can perfectly pronounce at least three Dutch words—koelkast(refrigerator), kraan (tap), and stopkontakt (electric outlet). Those three words have the same meaning and pronunciation in Dutch and in Indonesian. The real test of our pronunciation of Dutch comes when it involves the mythical 'G' sound.
After one year of studying in the Netherlands, of course I can say more than those three words. I even can handle short conversations quite smoothly. However, my Dutch friends still spot the imperfection of my 'G' sound!
In Indonesia, we pronounce 'G' like in the English word Game or Great, or like the way the Germans pronounce Guten Morgen. It's not the same in Dutch. We have this theory that our 'G' pronunciation is improving when we have a sore throat. It usually takes us some time to be able to pronounce Wageningen properly. In that case, we consider ourselves more fortunate than our friends who are studying in Groningen!
One evening after basketball training, a Dutch friend came up with a better theory. He said that everyone in the world can pronounce this mythical 'G' sound flawlessly when they are gargling-bubbling liquid in one's mouth, for example after brushing your teeth. Amazingly, people say that one of the hardest Dutch words to pronounce is Gegorgeld! It has three 'G's, one in each syllable. And yes... it literally means gargled!
/Steisianasari Mileiva, MSc Development and Rural Innovation, mileivas@yahoo.com
Any Indonesian can perfectly pronounce at least three Dutch words—koelkast(refrigerator), kraan (tap), and stopkontakt (electric outlet). Those three words have the same meaning and pronunciation in Dutch and in Indonesian. The real test of our pronunciation of Dutch comes when it involves the mythical 'G' sound.
After one year of studying in the Netherlands, of course I can say more than those three words. I even can handle short conversations quite smoothly. However, my Dutch friends still spot the imperfection of my 'G' sound!
In Indonesia, we pronounce 'G' like in the English word Game or Great, or like the way the Germans pronounce Guten Morgen. It's not the same in Dutch. We have this theory that our 'G' pronunciation is improving when we have a sore throat. It usually takes us some time to be able to pronounce Wageningen properly. In that case, we consider ourselves more fortunate than our friends who are studying in Groningen!
One evening after basketball training, a Dutch friend came up with a better theory. He said that everyone in the world can pronounce this mythical 'G' sound flawlessly when they are gargling-bubbling liquid in one's mouth, for example after brushing your teeth. Amazingly, people say that one of the hardest Dutch words to pronounce is Gegorgeld! It has three 'G's, one in each syllable. And yes... it literally means gargled!
/Steisianasari Mileiva, MSc Development and Rural Innovation, mileivas@yahoo.com
Vla Love
As published in Resource Magazine (for Wageningen University students and employees), 23 September 2010.
On facebook, there’s a public group named 'You know your Dutch when…' and believe it or not, number one on the list is '… when you love eating Vla.' Well, I have been living in the Netherlands for one year and I have no complaints about the vla culture.
Vla is my love at first sight. It happened one year ago, at my first dinner in the Netherlands with my Dutch corridor friends in Asserpark student house. After the main course, they told me that it was now time for the most fun part of the dinner... the toetje (dessert). Of course, the toetje was vla.
Back home in Indonesia, there is something called 'fla.' It is a thick sweet sauce made from milk, sugar, egg yolk, and cornstarch. We normally put moderate amount of 'fla' on top of a pudding/jelly, also for dessert. I always like my pudding with lots of 'fla.' So when they said vla, I was expecting a big plate of cold pudding and a bowl of 'fla'. I was surprised to see that what came out from the refrigerator was only something like a milk carton. Yes, that's one litre of vla! Then each of us poured the Vla into small bowls, ate it with spoons, and made the famous 'hmm... hmm' sound just like it's the most delicious thing on earth.
I think having Vla as dessert is smart and strategic... it's sweet, creamy, filling, and most importantly (for the modest student life)... it's cheap! It costs less than two euros per litre and that's enough for 4-5 dessert portions. Moreover, for those people like me who can't make up their mind between chocolate or vanilla flavor, there's the brilliant idea of chocolate-vanilla dubbelvla!
/Steisianasari Mileiva, Indonesia, MSc Development and Rural Innovation
On facebook, there’s a public group named 'You know your Dutch when…' and believe it or not, number one on the list is '… when you love eating Vla.' Well, I have been living in the Netherlands for one year and I have no complaints about the vla culture.
Vla is my love at first sight. It happened one year ago, at my first dinner in the Netherlands with my Dutch corridor friends in Asserpark student house. After the main course, they told me that it was now time for the most fun part of the dinner... the toetje (dessert). Of course, the toetje was vla.
Back home in Indonesia, there is something called 'fla.' It is a thick sweet sauce made from milk, sugar, egg yolk, and cornstarch. We normally put moderate amount of 'fla' on top of a pudding/jelly, also for dessert. I always like my pudding with lots of 'fla.' So when they said vla, I was expecting a big plate of cold pudding and a bowl of 'fla'. I was surprised to see that what came out from the refrigerator was only something like a milk carton. Yes, that's one litre of vla! Then each of us poured the Vla into small bowls, ate it with spoons, and made the famous 'hmm... hmm' sound just like it's the most delicious thing on earth.
I think having Vla as dessert is smart and strategic... it's sweet, creamy, filling, and most importantly (for the modest student life)... it's cheap! It costs less than two euros per litre and that's enough for 4-5 dessert portions. Moreover, for those people like me who can't make up their mind between chocolate or vanilla flavor, there's the brilliant idea of chocolate-vanilla dubbelvla!
/Steisianasari Mileiva, Indonesia, MSc Development and Rural Innovation
23 September 2010
(Some of) MDR Student Life
Yipppeee... the video of pictures compilation is officially in the Study Program's webpage in Wageningen University! Hope you all enjoy it. Feedback/critics are most welcome!
http://www.mdr.wur.nl/UK/Student+life/
*PS. Thanks Abs for the idea of the song and for being on the other side of the monitor during the creative process :)
HUGS,
http://www.mdr.wur.nl/UK/Student+life/
*PS. Thanks Abs for the idea of the song and for being on the other side of the monitor during the creative process :)
HUGS,
13 September 2010
Sentences
Some of you may know that I've been juggling Thesis Topic(s) in my head for quite some time now. Recently, Conny Almekinders, one of my lectures here in Wageningen shared her tips in relation to Thesis/Proposal writing. Actually, it's nothing new, but it coincided nicely with my state of emotion (entangled with confusions) at that time. Well, 'good timing' does able to turn ordinary into extraordinary and even sometimes disapproval into approval.
She said
"try to make sentences... making sentences will help in documenting those numerous questions and ideas in your head and in connecting or even structuring them."
I second that! Miguel and Leo, my friends in the MDR program were also in agreement. However, it is always easier said than done. Making sentences challenge us to connect ideas and to find words that represent our thinking.
One way to get ideas/inspirations for making sentences is by reading someone else's sentences. I always feel very excited when I encounter sentences that represent my unwritten thoughts. I often find them in Paulo Coelho's novels. Yesterday, I found them in John Mayer's blog! I noticed that the 2 examples are so NOT related to academic Thesis!
Anyhow, John's writing about "Going to Bed" precisely represents my unwritten points about it. I said to some friends, "I don't like going to bed when I'm not totally feeling sleepy, I don't like lying on my bed and trying to fall asleep, I prefer to fall asleep on my desk while working or on a couch while reading." Back home, my Mom was the champion in waking me up from all 'awkward' places to sleep (laptop's keyboard, studying chair, dining table, and even church's chair).
Here I copied John's writing. I ultimately fancy his sentence that I put in bold:
My whole life I've hated going to bed. I like falling asleep instead. Falling asleep is so much better than going to bed because you don't get tangled up in the logistics. Falling asleep happens for you, even if it means waking up at eight to the sun assaulting your eyes while a block of metal videos are playing on VH1 Classic. Then all you have to do is scamper over to your bed where you can capitalize on how fresh the memory of how to sleep is and instantly dip back into slumber. Going to bed invites performance anxiety. Going to bed means you have to confront a final moment of consciousness. I'm not a fan. I hope you all fall asleep well tonight.
Well, I better get some sleep too :)
12 September 2010
Life = Choices
This afternoon I was very lucky to get some nice and right-on-time inspirations via skype call from my version of 'Indonesian-next-best-thing', Daniel Chrisendo. Indonesia needs more energetic and inspiring YOUTH like him, no doubt!!
We were discussing about my fear of reverse-culture-shock when I come back to Indonesia. He shared 2 brilliant 'food-for-thoughts':
1. I fear to be drowned in some 'stereotypes' or 'old habits'. He said: You can CHOOSE which settings (people, discussion topics, places, events, organizations, etc.) you want to be. Life is about making choices and realizing that you CAN make those choices.
2. I fear the peer-pressure on marriage. He said: Marriage is indeed a SERIOUS thing, thus it is REASONABLE to say that one needs more time and process than others to make such decision or even to start thinking about it. It is about committing oneself to be LOYAL or in a simplistic word, to STICK, with one person. Digest that... with ONE person, one out of countless number of people you MAY MEET in your life. Of course, one may argue that life can be short, but one can also use the average life expectation of .. say 60 years old, which make the calculation as follows: even if one gets marry at the age of 30, then he/she (still) needs to STICK with one person (the DEAR husband/wife) for 30 years (that's MORE than 11,000 days!!)... calculate it if you start in your younger years!!
After our talk, I spent some (worthwhile) times reflecting on our discussion and I came across my own writing about "Life = Choices". It was written in year 2006. I wrote that life is about making choices, that who we are today is the accumulation of the choices that we made in the past. I remember even one of my childhood story books is a practice of making choices. In one of the pages, it asks: "If you think Tina should wait for the school bus, go to page 8. If you think Tina should walk home by herself, go to page 12."
Here I copied what I wrote about Life = Choices (only in Indonesian language). I am now back in the process of searching myself and 'what-where-how' in this universe I want to function/take part. A confusing stage of life. This writing reminds me of a 'giant' inside me that I once have... it's a wonderful encounter, it slightly recharge my energy and self-confidence.
Mahasiswa Berprestasi IPB 2006
Mahasiswa berprestasi adalah suatu kompetisi yang berjenjang dari tingkat departemen sampai nasional. Kompetisi ini diselenggarakan untuk memberikan penghargaan kepada mahasiswa yang mampu menyeimbangkan kemampuan intrakurikuler (akademis) dan ekstrakurikuler. Seleksi di tingkat IPB biasanya dimulai di bulan April setiap tahunnya. Saya berhasil menjadi mahasiswa berprestasi IPB 2006 dan meraih posisi ke-6 dari 15 finalis tingkat nasional. Saya adalah mahasiswa angkatan 39 di Departemen Ilmu dan Teknologi Pangan, Fakultas Teknologi Pertanian.
Siapa kita sekarang adalah akumulasi dari pilihan-pilihan kita di masa lampau. Sejak awal, saya memilih untuk memperkaya diri dengan pengalaman-pengalaman ekstrakurikuler dan tidak ingin menjadi study oriented. Sejak SMA saya sudah menyukai kegiatan organisasi, kepemimpinan, dan Bahasa Inggris. Ketertarikan ini saya lanjutkan di perkuliahan. Saya yakin bahwa banyak hal yang unik dan bermanfaat di luar ruang kuliah dan laboratorium.
Saya ingin membuat hidup ini lebih berbumbu. Sama seperti makanan, perpaduan bahan utama dan bumbu-bumbu harus tepat agar nikmat. Kelebihan bumbu juga tidak enak, bahkan dapat jadi beracun. Teman-teman yang juga aktif berorganisasi harus pintar-pintar mengatur waktu supaya "bumbu"-nya tidak berlebihan sehingga mengalahkan "makanan utama." Saya juga menerapkan belajar Sistem Kebut Semalan (SKS) untuk ujian. Namun, saat di ruang kuliah saya berusaha menyerap pelajaran semaksimal mungkin. Salah satu caranya adalah dengan duduk di depan, sehingga lebih terhindar dari niat untuk ngobrol dan ngantuk.
Menurut saya, banyak mahasiswa lain yang juga berprestasi, tetapi tidak semuanya mau repot-repot mengurus segala keperluan untuk mengikuti kompetisi mahasiswa berprestasi. Sebenarnya tidak banyak banget, hal-hal yang perlu dipersiapkan sejak dini adalah:
1. Karya tulis. Dari tahun ke tahun topiknya sputar peningkatan kualitas sumber daya Indonesia menuju peningkatan daya saing bangsa. Boleh ditinjau dari bidang IPA atau IPS. Sebaiknya, sedari sekarang kita merenungkan apa yang bisa kita kontribusikan untuk Indonesia. Bagaimana ilmu yang kita pelajari atau sukai dapat memperbaiki masalah-masalah bangsa ini.
Indeks Prestasi yang lumayan (untuk membuktikan kemampuan akademis).
2. Kemampuan Bahasa Inggris lisan dan tulisan karena seleksinya meliputi tes IELTS dan wawancara.
3. Data kegiatan ekstrakurikuler (organisasi, kepanitiaan, sosial) dan prestasi yang telah diraih. Dari sekarang mulai dikumpulkan sertifikat2, surat keterangan, surat tugas, dari kegiatan2 yang kalian ikuti mulai dari tingkat lokal sampai internasioanl, karena semua itu menyumbangkan poin dalam penilaian hanya jika ada bukti tertulis (lagipula kan sekalian mendata untuk melamar pekerjaan atau membuat sejarah hidup perkuliahan kita).
Kehidupan ini sangat menarik. Menarik karena kemisteriusannya. Banyak kesempatan lewat di depan kita, asalkan kita mau peka terhadap perkembangan informasi. Sejak kita bangun tidur, kita mulai dihadapkan pada pilihan2. Bahkan untuk bangun dari tempat tidur juga merupakan pilihan. Pikirkan baik-baik sebelum kalian memilih, sebelum kalian memilih untuk tidak mencoba mengikuti pemilihan mahasiswa berprestasi IPB 2007. Siapa tahu kalian akan menulis topik ini tahun depan. Selamat Memilih!
"He who has a why believe for can live with any how."
Steisi (mileivas@yahoo.com)
We were discussing about my fear of reverse-culture-shock when I come back to Indonesia. He shared 2 brilliant 'food-for-thoughts':
1. I fear to be drowned in some 'stereotypes' or 'old habits'. He said: You can CHOOSE which settings (people, discussion topics, places, events, organizations, etc.) you want to be. Life is about making choices and realizing that you CAN make those choices.
2. I fear the peer-pressure on marriage. He said: Marriage is indeed a SERIOUS thing, thus it is REASONABLE to say that one needs more time and process than others to make such decision or even to start thinking about it. It is about committing oneself to be LOYAL or in a simplistic word, to STICK, with one person. Digest that... with ONE person, one out of countless number of people you MAY MEET in your life. Of course, one may argue that life can be short, but one can also use the average life expectation of .. say 60 years old, which make the calculation as follows: even if one gets marry at the age of 30, then he/she (still) needs to STICK with one person (the DEAR husband/wife) for 30 years (that's MORE than 11,000 days!!)... calculate it if you start in your younger years!!
After our talk, I spent some (worthwhile) times reflecting on our discussion and I came across my own writing about "Life = Choices". It was written in year 2006. I wrote that life is about making choices, that who we are today is the accumulation of the choices that we made in the past. I remember even one of my childhood story books is a practice of making choices. In one of the pages, it asks: "If you think Tina should wait for the school bus, go to page 8. If you think Tina should walk home by herself, go to page 12."
Here I copied what I wrote about Life = Choices (only in Indonesian language). I am now back in the process of searching myself and 'what-where-how' in this universe I want to function/take part. A confusing stage of life. This writing reminds me of a 'giant' inside me that I once have... it's a wonderful encounter, it slightly recharge my energy and self-confidence.
Mahasiswa Berprestasi IPB 2006
Mahasiswa berprestasi adalah suatu kompetisi yang berjenjang dari tingkat departemen sampai nasional. Kompetisi ini diselenggarakan untuk memberikan penghargaan kepada mahasiswa yang mampu menyeimbangkan kemampuan intrakurikuler (akademis) dan ekstrakurikuler. Seleksi di tingkat IPB biasanya dimulai di bulan April setiap tahunnya. Saya berhasil menjadi mahasiswa berprestasi IPB 2006 dan meraih posisi ke-6 dari 15 finalis tingkat nasional. Saya adalah mahasiswa angkatan 39 di Departemen Ilmu dan Teknologi Pangan, Fakultas Teknologi Pertanian.
Siapa kita sekarang adalah akumulasi dari pilihan-pilihan kita di masa lampau. Sejak awal, saya memilih untuk memperkaya diri dengan pengalaman-pengalaman ekstrakurikuler dan tidak ingin menjadi study oriented. Sejak SMA saya sudah menyukai kegiatan organisasi, kepemimpinan, dan Bahasa Inggris. Ketertarikan ini saya lanjutkan di perkuliahan. Saya yakin bahwa banyak hal yang unik dan bermanfaat di luar ruang kuliah dan laboratorium.
Saya ingin membuat hidup ini lebih berbumbu. Sama seperti makanan, perpaduan bahan utama dan bumbu-bumbu harus tepat agar nikmat. Kelebihan bumbu juga tidak enak, bahkan dapat jadi beracun. Teman-teman yang juga aktif berorganisasi harus pintar-pintar mengatur waktu supaya "bumbu"-nya tidak berlebihan sehingga mengalahkan "makanan utama." Saya juga menerapkan belajar Sistem Kebut Semalan (SKS) untuk ujian. Namun, saat di ruang kuliah saya berusaha menyerap pelajaran semaksimal mungkin. Salah satu caranya adalah dengan duduk di depan, sehingga lebih terhindar dari niat untuk ngobrol dan ngantuk.
Menurut saya, banyak mahasiswa lain yang juga berprestasi, tetapi tidak semuanya mau repot-repot mengurus segala keperluan untuk mengikuti kompetisi mahasiswa berprestasi. Sebenarnya tidak banyak banget, hal-hal yang perlu dipersiapkan sejak dini adalah:
1. Karya tulis. Dari tahun ke tahun topiknya sputar peningkatan kualitas sumber daya Indonesia menuju peningkatan daya saing bangsa. Boleh ditinjau dari bidang IPA atau IPS. Sebaiknya, sedari sekarang kita merenungkan apa yang bisa kita kontribusikan untuk Indonesia. Bagaimana ilmu yang kita pelajari atau sukai dapat memperbaiki masalah-masalah bangsa ini.
Indeks Prestasi yang lumayan (untuk membuktikan kemampuan akademis).
2. Kemampuan Bahasa Inggris lisan dan tulisan karena seleksinya meliputi tes IELTS dan wawancara.
3. Data kegiatan ekstrakurikuler (organisasi, kepanitiaan, sosial) dan prestasi yang telah diraih. Dari sekarang mulai dikumpulkan sertifikat2, surat keterangan, surat tugas, dari kegiatan2 yang kalian ikuti mulai dari tingkat lokal sampai internasioanl, karena semua itu menyumbangkan poin dalam penilaian hanya jika ada bukti tertulis (lagipula kan sekalian mendata untuk melamar pekerjaan atau membuat sejarah hidup perkuliahan kita).
Kehidupan ini sangat menarik. Menarik karena kemisteriusannya. Banyak kesempatan lewat di depan kita, asalkan kita mau peka terhadap perkembangan informasi. Sejak kita bangun tidur, kita mulai dihadapkan pada pilihan2. Bahkan untuk bangun dari tempat tidur juga merupakan pilihan. Pikirkan baik-baik sebelum kalian memilih, sebelum kalian memilih untuk tidak mencoba mengikuti pemilihan mahasiswa berprestasi IPB 2007. Siapa tahu kalian akan menulis topik ini tahun depan. Selamat Memilih!
"He who has a why believe for can live with any how."
Steisi (mileivas@yahoo.com)
BEST Sister on Planet Earth!
After one year of studying social science here in Wageningen, I have better understanding on the fact that every individual is unique. The fact that everyone of us has our own reality and that reality is (socially) constructed. That said, it is indeed SPECIAL to have one other individual in this Planet Earth who can UNDERSTAND you! It is SPECIAL to have someone who can understand the construction of your constructed reality. Hahaha.. I'm making things complicated (again) now...
I'm blessed to have that SPECIAL someone, and she is my lovely SISTER! She is my version of the 'BEST Sister on Planet Earth!'
So, here I want to share you a 'document' that she beautifully recorded. I'm pretty sure you'll agree with me on that BEST SISTER title!! Unfortunately, only for my Indonesian-speaking friends... until my lovely sister decided to translate them I guess... :) I hope I make you all jealous, coz she's MY sister! Hahahaa.. *wink*
http://stevania.blogspot.com/2008/05/percakapan-mega-penting-di-abad-ini.html
... and Sis, nope, I haven't found the answer. I AM in the same questions and struggles! But, I guess that's just the way I AM! HUGS.
I'm blessed to have that SPECIAL someone, and she is my lovely SISTER! She is my version of the 'BEST Sister on Planet Earth!'
So, here I want to share you a 'document' that she beautifully recorded. I'm pretty sure you'll agree with me on that BEST SISTER title!! Unfortunately, only for my Indonesian-speaking friends... until my lovely sister decided to translate them I guess... :) I hope I make you all jealous, coz she's MY sister! Hahahaa.. *wink*
http://stevania.blogspot.com/2008/05/percakapan-mega-penting-di-abad-ini.html
... and Sis, nope, I haven't found the answer. I AM in the same questions and struggles! But, I guess that's just the way I AM! HUGS.
05 September 2010
Asante Sana
Early morning
wake up and checking
so many things running in their heads
Birds are singing
as they start walking
making sure people have some bread
Morogoro is their playground
where people are lost and found
you always hear their sound
helping all around
Luzius Tere Fiorina
Lea Johanes Kahal
Asante asante sana
Thank you thank you thank you
Always busy
but also happy
organizing everything
Always tough
but never rough
your strengths make us feel BAFF
Morogoro is their playground
where people are lost and found
you always hear their sound
helping all around
Luzius Tere Fiorina
Lea Johanes Kahal
Asante asante sana
Thank you thank you thank you
Dona, dona, dona; Steisi & Frederik
Morogoro, Tanzania
8 - 31 August 2010
Home in Wageningen
My homey home, here in Wageningen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ofhnl_PzWqc#
Thanks to PPI Wageningen team (for nominating my student room in Asserpark) and Bang Drias (producer and reporter)!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ofhnl_PzWqc#
Thanks to PPI Wageningen team (for nominating my student room in Asserpark) and Bang Drias (producer and reporter)!
16 July 2010
The Present
"For many days, I wondered if that mat really had existed, or of he was an angel sent by God to teach me the secret lessons of life. In the end, I decided that he had been a real man, a man who had loved me, even if only for an afternoon, and during that afternoon, he'd given me everything... his struggles, his joys, his difficulties, and his dreams. That afternoon I gave myself wholly as well--I was his companion, his audience, his lover. In a matter of only a few hours, I experienced the love of a lifetime."
Mother looked at daughter...
"I've never stopped loving your father, not for a single day... He's always been my side, doing his best, and I want to be with him until the end. But the heart's a mysterious thing, and I still don't really understand what happened that afternoon... meeting that man left me feeling more confident, and showed me I was still capable of loving and being loved, and it taught me something else that I'll never forget: finding one important thing in your life doesn't mean you have to give up all the other important things."
(Brida, by Paulo Coelho, p.168-169)
Love, in any form, can happen as brief as that if we're able to live in the present. Always have that space in you for 'the present', rite Mariana?!? :)
Let the Tanzanesia journey begin!
Mother looked at daughter...
"I've never stopped loving your father, not for a single day... He's always been my side, doing his best, and I want to be with him until the end. But the heart's a mysterious thing, and I still don't really understand what happened that afternoon... meeting that man left me feeling more confident, and showed me I was still capable of loving and being loved, and it taught me something else that I'll never forget: finding one important thing in your life doesn't mean you have to give up all the other important things."
(Brida, by Paulo Coelho, p.168-169)
Love, in any form, can happen as brief as that if we're able to live in the present. Always have that space in you for 'the present', rite Mariana?!? :)
Let the Tanzanesia journey begin!
14 July 2010
Power and Success
Another food for thoughts from Paulo Coelho's book: The Winner Stands Alone
"... total power means total slavery. when you get that far, you don't ever want to give it up... there's always a new mountain to climb. ... success is both an addiction and an enslavement ..."
sounds familiar...
Remembering my chat with my Bolivian best friend, Mariana. we can chat about everything and nothing; the spoken and unspoken. Mariana, all the best for your Thesis and Internship in Bolivia!! Yup, with special friends, there's no goodbye, only "see you later" :)
"... total power means total slavery. when you get that far, you don't ever want to give it up... there's always a new mountain to climb. ... success is both an addiction and an enslavement ..."
sounds familiar...
Remembering my chat with my Bolivian best friend, Mariana. we can chat about everything and nothing; the spoken and unspoken. Mariana, all the best for your Thesis and Internship in Bolivia!! Yup, with special friends, there's no goodbye, only "see you later" :)
01 June 2010
Pieces #7: Observation
Sis,
These couple of days I’ve been trying to observe myself. Haha, maybe it’s influenced by the "Methods, Technique, and Data Analysis for Field Research" course that I’m doing this period. It’s a super intensive course with endless readings and (individual and group) assignments. I’m very lucky to have wonderful people (Tanya and Elisa) in my group.
I observed that I feel better after a shower. I really feel refreshed after cleaning my body and my soul. Haha, I think the water was able to clean my soul and negative thoughts as well… I also feel better when I put on nice outfit, it doesn’t mean that it’s a branded or expensive clothing, but an outfit that suits me and comfortable to wear. Somehow I feel more confident and ready to seize the day!
I observed my virtual life is demanding more space in me. I realized that today as the Internet connection is broken in my student house. I felt an empty space... well it was also a quiet Sunday afternoon, I'm alone in the corridor. The virtual life was one way to make me feel that I’m not alone—that I have those virtual lives of other people around me, on my laptop screen.
Then I continued reading some random articles with the hope to get inspiration for my Thesis. It was in an extremely slow pace because my mind was going here and there, couldn’t really focus! Then, I took a shower and decided to write down my observations upon myself.
...
Oh, one more thing Sis, I just found this academic writing that may relate to my writing above: Emile Durkheim proposes that the individual and the collective state of mind are within all people and that there is a constant struggle between these two states.
BIG HUGS,
These couple of days I’ve been trying to observe myself. Haha, maybe it’s influenced by the "Methods, Technique, and Data Analysis for Field Research" course that I’m doing this period. It’s a super intensive course with endless readings and (individual and group) assignments. I’m very lucky to have wonderful people (Tanya and Elisa) in my group.
I observed that I feel better after a shower. I really feel refreshed after cleaning my body and my soul. Haha, I think the water was able to clean my soul and negative thoughts as well… I also feel better when I put on nice outfit, it doesn’t mean that it’s a branded or expensive clothing, but an outfit that suits me and comfortable to wear. Somehow I feel more confident and ready to seize the day!
I observed my virtual life is demanding more space in me. I realized that today as the Internet connection is broken in my student house. I felt an empty space... well it was also a quiet Sunday afternoon, I'm alone in the corridor. The virtual life was one way to make me feel that I’m not alone—that I have those virtual lives of other people around me, on my laptop screen.
Then I continued reading some random articles with the hope to get inspiration for my Thesis. It was in an extremely slow pace because my mind was going here and there, couldn’t really focus! Then, I took a shower and decided to write down my observations upon myself.
...
Oh, one more thing Sis, I just found this academic writing that may relate to my writing above: Emile Durkheim proposes that the individual and the collective state of mind are within all people and that there is a constant struggle between these two states.
BIG HUGS,
15 May 2010
Pieces #6: Book for Zabi
Sis,
Yesterday I was in Utrecht with Mba Djummy, a good friend of mine who has been in the Netherlands in the past 3 weeks for a media training in Hilversum. She will return to Jakarta tomorrow. It was a nice sunny day with some chilly winds. We had a Dutch lunch of Harring and Kibbeling with Bread in Utrecht Open Market, visited the Money Museum, walked around the Dom, had doner for dinner, and a drink in Florin.
Photo facility in the Money Museum
I gave a book to Zabi from the snack bar in Utrecht. Zabi was the chef who said to me that I am a nice girl because I was reading a book. He was a bit surprised. The book is in Dutch, and has the word 'voetbal' on the title. I don't really know what the story is about. It's quite small and not a long read. As we left the snack bar, Zabi said that he likes the book (I guess he read some pages already...). "Good luck Zabi and see you around!"
Sis, it was a nice day!
Yesterday I was in Utrecht with Mba Djummy, a good friend of mine who has been in the Netherlands in the past 3 weeks for a media training in Hilversum. She will return to Jakarta tomorrow. It was a nice sunny day with some chilly winds. We had a Dutch lunch of Harring and Kibbeling with Bread in Utrecht Open Market, visited the Money Museum, walked around the Dom, had doner for dinner, and a drink in Florin.
Photo facility in the Money Museum
I gave a book to Zabi from the snack bar in Utrecht. Zabi was the chef who said to me that I am a nice girl because I was reading a book. He was a bit surprised. The book is in Dutch, and has the word 'voetbal' on the title. I don't really know what the story is about. It's quite small and not a long read. As we left the snack bar, Zabi said that he likes the book (I guess he read some pages already...). "Good luck Zabi and see you around!"
Sis, it was a nice day!
Pieces #5: Post-Test
Sis,
It's been ages since my last Pieces Mission for you.
So, I managed to pass "The Test of Life" ... It was tough Sis, I did not pass it with 'flying colors', just an average mark. As I reflect on the day of the 'test', I was too busy being sad and forgetting to give support and encouragement! I will correct that in future life.
Well, I am feeling better these days, the old trick of keeping myself busy and having people around kinda help. Of course a bit splash of sadness as memories flashing in my head every now and then... quite human I guess ?!?
Everything happens for a reason. I believe that there are good reasons for the brief encounter. Since I see to live is to learn, I want to believe that it was for me to continue learning the other side of life--the side that I've been putting aside. The side that is colored with good heart, peaceful mind, and sincere act. I learn more about myself, to be a better Steisi for others and for herself.
Off you go to your new chapter.
Best Wishes and Thank You!
PS. Sis, thanks for all the prayers!
It's been ages since my last Pieces Mission for you.
So, I managed to pass "The Test of Life" ... It was tough Sis, I did not pass it with 'flying colors', just an average mark. As I reflect on the day of the 'test', I was too busy being sad and forgetting to give support and encouragement! I will correct that in future life.
Well, I am feeling better these days, the old trick of keeping myself busy and having people around kinda help. Of course a bit splash of sadness as memories flashing in my head every now and then... quite human I guess ?!?
Everything happens for a reason. I believe that there are good reasons for the brief encounter. Since I see to live is to learn, I want to believe that it was for me to continue learning the other side of life--the side that I've been putting aside. The side that is colored with good heart, peaceful mind, and sincere act. I learn more about myself, to be a better Steisi for others and for herself.
Off you go to your new chapter.
Best Wishes and Thank You!
PS. Sis, thanks for all the prayers!
12 April 2010
If the world is ...
From a friend here in Wageningen, as we discussed about his passion for music:
Steisi: Mr.pelangi, I wrote down a couple of random thoughts and remarks I recently saw or heard from the people around me here in my Wageningen life... the temporary life I'm living in.
Steisi: Yours got number 2: "A musical friend was greeting me from behind the bar. He was tired, I was tired. He's keeping the Jam Session running because he loves music. He said *it (music) cleanses my soul!*"
Pascal: That's a good quote. But you know it's not just about music by itself. It's about making music with other people and learning to put the ego aside to create something as a whole that can not be created by yourself.
Pascal: I hope the jam session has the same positive effect on you as it has on me. As long as people keep coming and enjoy the music I'll put in my best effort to keep the Jam session going. See you soon *hugs*. Matahari!
Beautiful! If the world is a Jam Session in the way we believe in... It is a beautiful place for you and for me!
Steisi: Mr.pelangi, I wrote down a couple of random thoughts and remarks I recently saw or heard from the people around me here in my Wageningen life... the temporary life I'm living in.
Steisi: Yours got number 2: "A musical friend was greeting me from behind the bar. He was tired, I was tired. He's keeping the Jam Session running because he loves music. He said *it (music) cleanses my soul!*"
Pascal: That's a good quote. But you know it's not just about music by itself. It's about making music with other people and learning to put the ego aside to create something as a whole that can not be created by yourself.
Pascal: I hope the jam session has the same positive effect on you as it has on me. As long as people keep coming and enjoy the music I'll put in my best effort to keep the Jam session going. See you soon *hugs*. Matahari!
Beautiful! If the world is a Jam Session in the way we believe in... It is a beautiful place for you and for me!
11 April 2010
Pieces #4: The Test of Life
Sis,
It's been quite sometimes since my last writing to you.
Spring has arrived they say, flowers are blossoming and that beautiful Cherry Blossom (white, pink, pink-red) are here in Wageningen. I had a nice walk with Astrid this afternoon to the Forest of Wageningen and on the way back we took 2 branches and they are now in my room. Their beauty is helping me to go through this test of life...
I may unable to share it with you yet about this test of life. As time goes, I'm pretty sure I will be able to unpack it better.
A friend once reminded me Sis, 'What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger' and I suppose more or less it is in line with what we've been understanding from our religion 'You will not be tempted/tested beyond what you are able.' So, I will eventually pass this test and be a better Steisi.
I feel that already now, I understand more of life. I told Ma last time on the phone, that after 24 years, I finally understand what you all (Pa, Ma, Sis) have been trying to tell me about 'taking time to relax', about your concerns that I'm always busy doing this and that, about my weird feeling that I always have to do something--even in the weekend or in holidays, about 'being present for other people.' I finally understand... after living life here in Wageningen.
Over skype, I've just talked about it with my best friend, Mariana.. and she comforted my soul by telling me that life loves me very much! Because life is teaching me all those things by giving me this test. The test itself may involve tears and sadness, but the learning process before the test are filled with laughters and happiness, but the learning process are filled with understanding and affection.
The test is coming soon... They say it is common to pass such test with an average mark, because it is usually hard for everyone. Tears and sadness if they may come, let it be for the day of the test. But, for now I want to continue learning, learning, and learning...
Thanks Mariana, Fenni, Astrid! 11 April 2010.
Until next post Sis!
It's been quite sometimes since my last writing to you.
Spring has arrived they say, flowers are blossoming and that beautiful Cherry Blossom (white, pink, pink-red) are here in Wageningen. I had a nice walk with Astrid this afternoon to the Forest of Wageningen and on the way back we took 2 branches and they are now in my room. Their beauty is helping me to go through this test of life...
I may unable to share it with you yet about this test of life. As time goes, I'm pretty sure I will be able to unpack it better.
A friend once reminded me Sis, 'What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger' and I suppose more or less it is in line with what we've been understanding from our religion 'You will not be tempted/tested beyond what you are able.' So, I will eventually pass this test and be a better Steisi.
I feel that already now, I understand more of life. I told Ma last time on the phone, that after 24 years, I finally understand what you all (Pa, Ma, Sis) have been trying to tell me about 'taking time to relax', about your concerns that I'm always busy doing this and that, about my weird feeling that I always have to do something--even in the weekend or in holidays, about 'being present for other people.' I finally understand... after living life here in Wageningen.
Over skype, I've just talked about it with my best friend, Mariana.. and she comforted my soul by telling me that life loves me very much! Because life is teaching me all those things by giving me this test. The test itself may involve tears and sadness, but the learning process before the test are filled with laughters and happiness, but the learning process are filled with understanding and affection.
The test is coming soon... They say it is common to pass such test with an average mark, because it is usually hard for everyone. Tears and sadness if they may come, let it be for the day of the test. But, for now I want to continue learning, learning, and learning...
Thanks Mariana, Fenni, Astrid! 11 April 2010.
Until next post Sis!
05 April 2010
Pieces #3: Breathing while Drowning
Sis,
I went to Rotterdam and Delft today. It was worthwhile! Rotterdam took my breath away--the city is so full of surprises of architecture/art works! Fenni and I, we made this one liner for Rotterdam: "Tak Mau Sama (Say No to Same)."
All sort of buildings (city hall, apartment, train station, office building, museum, etc.) have their own distinguished architectural style that makes a bold statement! I say it's a heaven on earth for those passionate people on urban buildings architecture. Also, Rotterdam is a bustling city, the traffic in the big streets, reminded me a bit of Jakarta during the normal hours (not rush hour).
Delft, 15 minutes trip by train from Rotterdam, was a quiet city; probably because it was the second day of Paska and it's a national holiday! The small canals between houses/restaurants/shops reminded me a lot of Utrecht...
Well, let it be a short writing this time Sis! I'm a bit drowning with paper works and study stuff as well at the moment... I hope I can emerge and swim through these waves!
HUGS
I went to Rotterdam and Delft today. It was worthwhile! Rotterdam took my breath away--the city is so full of surprises of architecture/art works! Fenni and I, we made this one liner for Rotterdam: "Tak Mau Sama (Say No to Same)."
All sort of buildings (city hall, apartment, train station, office building, museum, etc.) have their own distinguished architectural style that makes a bold statement! I say it's a heaven on earth for those passionate people on urban buildings architecture. Also, Rotterdam is a bustling city, the traffic in the big streets, reminded me a bit of Jakarta during the normal hours (not rush hour).
Delft, 15 minutes trip by train from Rotterdam, was a quiet city; probably because it was the second day of Paska and it's a national holiday! The small canals between houses/restaurants/shops reminded me a lot of Utrecht...
Well, let it be a short writing this time Sis! I'm a bit drowning with paper works and study stuff as well at the moment... I hope I can emerge and swim through these waves!
HUGS
03 April 2010
Pieces #2: Nice Girl
Sis,
It was a beautiful sunny day!! I went to Utrecht to join a Jumat Agung (Good Friday) ceremony in one of the Catholic Church there. I walked around the city center after the ceremony and before Toastmasters. This was my first time walking around the artistic city of Utrecht even though I go there every now and then to visit Bulang Utrecht or every 2 Fridays of the month for Utrecht Toastmasters evening. I really enjoyed it! The city is a lovely 3D picture of canals, small alleys, compact houses, churches, bicycles, people sitting or chatting under the sun!
Afterward, I sit in a snack bar nearby the Toastmasters venue in Nobelstraat, eating my dinner (lamshoarma and patat) and continued reading the "Winner Stands Alone" -- Paulo Coelho. The guy behind the counter who was also the 'chef' was nice and polite. He came from Afghanistan and has been struggling from day to day in the Netherlands for 9 years now! He speaks fluent Dutch and quite good English. I practiced a bit of Dutch with him.. :) He said Indonesia is a beautiful country, yet I was unable to make a good remark about Afghanistan... He also said that he is not thinking of going back to Afghanistan because his parents dislike him. Wow Sis! I was unable to think of any proper response to that remark and I just put a sympathetic smile on my face...
While I was reading, he came and said "You're a nice girl! You're reading. I like to see nice girl instead of bad ones..." He went on saying that he works on weekdays to get money and then spend the money to have fun and alcohols in the weekend. He said he doesn't read books and he was praising me because I was reading. Sis, the moment I heard 'nice girl', my mind went to those similar remarks I've received my entire life from people, especially men... hahahaha.. Well, you know these stuff Sis!
Well... I was thinking, probably I could find him a nice, simple, and short book and drop it by for him when I go to Utrecht Toastmasters next time.
Maybe a good idea rite Sis?!
Hope you're well! Till next post...
It was a beautiful sunny day!! I went to Utrecht to join a Jumat Agung (Good Friday) ceremony in one of the Catholic Church there. I walked around the city center after the ceremony and before Toastmasters. This was my first time walking around the artistic city of Utrecht even though I go there every now and then to visit Bulang Utrecht or every 2 Fridays of the month for Utrecht Toastmasters evening. I really enjoyed it! The city is a lovely 3D picture of canals, small alleys, compact houses, churches, bicycles, people sitting or chatting under the sun!
Afterward, I sit in a snack bar nearby the Toastmasters venue in Nobelstraat, eating my dinner (lamshoarma and patat) and continued reading the "Winner Stands Alone" -- Paulo Coelho. The guy behind the counter who was also the 'chef' was nice and polite. He came from Afghanistan and has been struggling from day to day in the Netherlands for 9 years now! He speaks fluent Dutch and quite good English. I practiced a bit of Dutch with him.. :) He said Indonesia is a beautiful country, yet I was unable to make a good remark about Afghanistan... He also said that he is not thinking of going back to Afghanistan because his parents dislike him. Wow Sis! I was unable to think of any proper response to that remark and I just put a sympathetic smile on my face...
While I was reading, he came and said "You're a nice girl! You're reading. I like to see nice girl instead of bad ones..." He went on saying that he works on weekdays to get money and then spend the money to have fun and alcohols in the weekend. He said he doesn't read books and he was praising me because I was reading. Sis, the moment I heard 'nice girl', my mind went to those similar remarks I've received my entire life from people, especially men... hahahaha.. Well, you know these stuff Sis!
Well... I was thinking, probably I could find him a nice, simple, and short book and drop it by for him when I go to Utrecht Toastmasters next time.
Maybe a good idea rite Sis?!
Hope you're well! Till next post...
02 April 2010
Pieces #1: Being Human and Frail
Sis,
So you like the idea of Pieces Mission. Great! So, here we go...
I was supposed to write this down last night before falling asleep. But, was a bit swamped I guess.
I went to the Tropical Museum in Amsterdam for an Anthropology course that I'm taking this period. It was a group trip, with the lecturer and the class. It is quite a huge museum and the building was functioned as the VOC (yes, that 'known-as-cruel' abbreviation in our country) headquarter during the colonialism time. The assignment was to observe and reflect on the Sub-Saharan Africa, Latin America, and North Africa-Middle East exhibitions. It was interesting to observe and analyze museum's exhibitions with my new 'eyeglasses' -- the critical perspective on every sentences and displays.. which means more work inside my brain, which means more and more grey-hair... hahaha...
Then, in the evening I went to the church here in Wageningen for the Kamis Putih or the Last Supper celebration mass. I went with Nokutula, my 'tough' friend from Zimbabwe. There were moments when I really missed you all--Pa, Ma, Sis. I remembered every Easter masses we always go to the church together--figuring out what time to depart from home to be able to get seats in the Cathedral Church or in Regina Pacis Hall.
Then we had some drinks in the bar in Wageningen Centrum. It's called Vlaamsche Reus, it's my class (and some lecturers) favorite meeting place. We usually go there after class on Friday evening, but we moved it to Thursday evening this time. We like this place because there's no loud music, so that we can really talk and have good and fun conversations! I remember just before leaving I made a remark that 'I am one of those girls who don't know what they want in life' ... and yes Sis, I still don't know for sure. I still envy those people who have a bold passion in life (like you and your photography world), who know where they want to go, what they believe in... everything is random with me at the moment, things are thin--not bold.
Well, but I am not in despair. I am still optimistic, like that proverb that goes: 'I still see the light at the end of the tunnel'
But, you know Sis, it was good to be able to say that to people: that I don't know what I want in life yet, that I still haven't found what I'm looking for... At the moment I am reading Paulo Coelho "The Winner Stands Alone" and I've reached the part where a character, a young lady at her 25 who just won a movie audition and will be playing a leading role--her life's dream! She's in the final stage of an interview and the producer (in a yacht) asked her to tell them about herself. She dazzled him by saying the following:
'I'm just one of millions of people in the world who have always dreamed of being on a yacht like this, looking at the sea, and talking about the possibility of working with at least one of you gentlemen. And you both know that. I doubt there's anything else I might say that will change anything very much. .... ' And the story goes: She's glad to have had the guts to show that she's human and frail ... And more it goes: There's a disease called sleeping sickness and a similar disease can attack the soul. It's very dangerous because the early stages often go unnoticed. At the first sign of indifference or lack of enthusiasm, take note! The only preventive against this disease is the realization that the soul suffers, suffers greatly, when we force it to live superficially. The soul loves all things beautiful and deep.
The I went back home and fell asleep... a good one :)
Till next one Sis!
So you like the idea of Pieces Mission. Great! So, here we go...
I was supposed to write this down last night before falling asleep. But, was a bit swamped I guess.
I went to the Tropical Museum in Amsterdam for an Anthropology course that I'm taking this period. It was a group trip, with the lecturer and the class. It is quite a huge museum and the building was functioned as the VOC (yes, that 'known-as-cruel' abbreviation in our country) headquarter during the colonialism time. The assignment was to observe and reflect on the Sub-Saharan Africa, Latin America, and North Africa-Middle East exhibitions. It was interesting to observe and analyze museum's exhibitions with my new 'eyeglasses' -- the critical perspective on every sentences and displays.. which means more work inside my brain, which means more and more grey-hair... hahaha...
Then, in the evening I went to the church here in Wageningen for the Kamis Putih or the Last Supper celebration mass. I went with Nokutula, my 'tough' friend from Zimbabwe. There were moments when I really missed you all--Pa, Ma, Sis. I remembered every Easter masses we always go to the church together--figuring out what time to depart from home to be able to get seats in the Cathedral Church or in Regina Pacis Hall.
Then we had some drinks in the bar in Wageningen Centrum. It's called Vlaamsche Reus, it's my class (and some lecturers) favorite meeting place. We usually go there after class on Friday evening, but we moved it to Thursday evening this time. We like this place because there's no loud music, so that we can really talk and have good and fun conversations! I remember just before leaving I made a remark that 'I am one of those girls who don't know what they want in life' ... and yes Sis, I still don't know for sure. I still envy those people who have a bold passion in life (like you and your photography world), who know where they want to go, what they believe in... everything is random with me at the moment, things are thin--not bold.
Well, but I am not in despair. I am still optimistic, like that proverb that goes: 'I still see the light at the end of the tunnel'
But, you know Sis, it was good to be able to say that to people: that I don't know what I want in life yet, that I still haven't found what I'm looking for... At the moment I am reading Paulo Coelho "The Winner Stands Alone" and I've reached the part where a character, a young lady at her 25 who just won a movie audition and will be playing a leading role--her life's dream! She's in the final stage of an interview and the producer (in a yacht) asked her to tell them about herself. She dazzled him by saying the following:
'I'm just one of millions of people in the world who have always dreamed of being on a yacht like this, looking at the sea, and talking about the possibility of working with at least one of you gentlemen. And you both know that. I doubt there's anything else I might say that will change anything very much. .... ' And the story goes: She's glad to have had the guts to show that she's human and frail ... And more it goes: There's a disease called sleeping sickness and a similar disease can attack the soul. It's very dangerous because the early stages often go unnoticed. At the first sign of indifference or lack of enthusiasm, take note! The only preventive against this disease is the realization that the soul suffers, suffers greatly, when we force it to live superficially. The soul loves all things beautiful and deep.
The I went back home and fell asleep... a good one :)
Till next one Sis!
31 March 2010
Pieces: try-out
Sis,
Let's try out the Pieces Mission. I guess you know couple of reasons why I would like to do this mission.
You know I've always been amazed with inspirational readings or movies, for example my love in Paulo Coelho's novels. Sometimes those words have huge effect on me and really improve how I see life and how I see myself. So, I've always been wanting to be a writer as well...someday. To be able to share my thoughts with others through writings that can help other people, one way or the other...
You know I've always had this unique way of digesting events, conversations, and emotions around me. My brain is constantly working to link many things in life. Maybe that's why I often look restless and it is hard for me to stay still and relax. Well, maybe it's about time to write down those thinking, maybe it's useful, maybe not, maybe it even doesn't make any sense... but I'll never know if it's only inside my head...
You know I've always like to have something happening in my life. Organizing this, leading that, attending this, meeting with those people on this and that... Well, I guess I'm kinda loosing that hectic life here in Wageningen. And, for some reasons I chose to do that. Yes, sis, I am operating like a different Steisi here. You must have been laughing out loud if you see how I was struggling not to do anything here.. how I exercise to say NO to several offers to organize this and that. So, I guess, this Pieces Mission should be do-able and not really making myself busy (I still can exercise myself to chill and enjoy the beauty or the mystery in every minutes of life), but I still feel like doing something...
You know I've always loved you and maybe you'll be the only person in this planet whom I can be the 'real weird Steisi' (yeah... all those clumsy, funny, sad, fun moments Sis). So, I guess it's also nice to share the Pieces with the world; with whoever feel like reading our 'one and only' sistership through this Pieces Mission.
So, this is the try-out edition of the Pieces Mission. I wrote you a message on your facebook inbox about this mission. Let me know what you think about it Sis!
HUGS
Let's try out the Pieces Mission. I guess you know couple of reasons why I would like to do this mission.
You know I've always been amazed with inspirational readings or movies, for example my love in Paulo Coelho's novels. Sometimes those words have huge effect on me and really improve how I see life and how I see myself. So, I've always been wanting to be a writer as well...someday. To be able to share my thoughts with others through writings that can help other people, one way or the other...
You know I've always had this unique way of digesting events, conversations, and emotions around me. My brain is constantly working to link many things in life. Maybe that's why I often look restless and it is hard for me to stay still and relax. Well, maybe it's about time to write down those thinking, maybe it's useful, maybe not, maybe it even doesn't make any sense... but I'll never know if it's only inside my head...
You know I've always like to have something happening in my life. Organizing this, leading that, attending this, meeting with those people on this and that... Well, I guess I'm kinda loosing that hectic life here in Wageningen. And, for some reasons I chose to do that. Yes, sis, I am operating like a different Steisi here. You must have been laughing out loud if you see how I was struggling not to do anything here.. how I exercise to say NO to several offers to organize this and that. So, I guess, this Pieces Mission should be do-able and not really making myself busy (I still can exercise myself to chill and enjoy the beauty or the mystery in every minutes of life), but I still feel like doing something...
You know I've always loved you and maybe you'll be the only person in this planet whom I can be the 'real weird Steisi' (yeah... all those clumsy, funny, sad, fun moments Sis). So, I guess it's also nice to share the Pieces with the world; with whoever feel like reading our 'one and only' sistership through this Pieces Mission.
So, this is the try-out edition of the Pieces Mission. I wrote you a message on your facebook inbox about this mission. Let me know what you think about it Sis!
HUGS
29 March 2010
MSc Development and Rural Innovation (MDR)
The only constant is change itself!
As some of you may know, I am currently living a student life in Wageningen University, The Netherlands. The name of my Master program has been changed to MSc Development and Rural Innovation (MDR). Before MDR, the name was MSc Management of Agro-Ecological Knowledge and Social Change (MAKS). The change is only in the name of the program, not in the content; just like changing the casing of cellphone or bed-sheet.
Like any other changes that happen in this planet; some like the new name, some don't. Some disagree with the changing process itself, some find MDR easier to 'explain' compare to MAKS, some worry about the prospect to pursue professional career in the developed countries and in the developing countries.
Indeed the changing process was quite complex and apparently the talk to change the MAKS name has started a decade ago. It was said that one of the main triggers to change the MAKS name was because it is far from being 'the common' and it is not self-explanatory; especially when compared with MSc programs like 'Biotechnology', 'International Development', 'Nutrition and Health.'
So far, I am fine with MDR. I would say I am fine with any NAMING of the program. I am currently in love with the content--the subjects that I am learning. I see that the real challenge lies in the ability to formulate a simple-understandable by layman one/two-liner(s) of what is MAKS? or now.. what is MDR?
This is my one-liner; which of course is not constant and may change as time goes...
MAKS-ers/MDR-ers, what's your one/two-liner(s)?
As some of you may know, I am currently living a student life in Wageningen University, The Netherlands. The name of my Master program has been changed to MSc Development and Rural Innovation (MDR). Before MDR, the name was MSc Management of Agro-Ecological Knowledge and Social Change (MAKS). The change is only in the name of the program, not in the content; just like changing the casing of cellphone or bed-sheet.
Like any other changes that happen in this planet; some like the new name, some don't. Some disagree with the changing process itself, some find MDR easier to 'explain' compare to MAKS, some worry about the prospect to pursue professional career in the developed countries and in the developing countries.
Indeed the changing process was quite complex and apparently the talk to change the MAKS name has started a decade ago. It was said that one of the main triggers to change the MAKS name was because it is far from being 'the common' and it is not self-explanatory; especially when compared with MSc programs like 'Biotechnology', 'International Development', 'Nutrition and Health.'
So far, I am fine with MDR. I would say I am fine with any NAMING of the program. I am currently in love with the content--the subjects that I am learning. I see that the real challenge lies in the ability to formulate a simple-understandable by layman one/two-liner(s) of what is MAKS? or now.. what is MDR?
This is my one-liner; which of course is not constant and may change as time goes...
MDR equips students (from natural science background) with social science perspectives to analyze and to understand the dynamics and the complexity of social change.
MAKS-ers/MDR-ers, what's your one/two-liner(s)?
26 March 2010
Rambling-2: Here in Wageningen
Just want to write down a couple of random thoughts and remarks I recently saw or heard from friends... from the people around me here in my Wageningen life... yup, the temporary life I'm living in :)
1. A corridor mate was cooking. A delicious smell filled the corridor! He told me he is cooking for a dinner with his girlfriend. *Ahh.. it was not only the smell of the food, but also the smell of love*
2. A musical friend was greeting me from behind the bar. He was tired, I was tired. He's keeping the Jam Session running because he loves music. He said *it (music) cleanses my soul!*
3. A scared stranger I suppose, with an alcohol smell. *It's Friday, I don't want to be alone, I need people around me* Well... as they say, alcohol adds honesty in your statement.
4. A very unpredictable friend... *I don't know what I'll do next week, I don't even know what I'll do the day after tomorrow or this weekend* Apparently for some people planning is aching...
5. A confused friend, very rich of love and care; enough to be shared here in Wageningen. *I can, but I don't want to say stop because I see that you're truly happy!*
6. A basketball friend, in love with another place in the other part of the globe. *Wageningen is just a 'stopover', make the best of it and have fun!!*
7. *This is Wageningen, there's no such thing as love...*
8. A messy mind; negotiating with her ego, with her way of how things should operate. What to do? What to do? What to do? *It will end... yeah, but what won't?*
Wageningen life will end, sooner or later...
MAKS-24 Dinner in Period 4, 12 March 2010, @ Droef 41!
Lovely People!! Will really really miss those moments...
1. A corridor mate was cooking. A delicious smell filled the corridor! He told me he is cooking for a dinner with his girlfriend. *Ahh.. it was not only the smell of the food, but also the smell of love*
2. A musical friend was greeting me from behind the bar. He was tired, I was tired. He's keeping the Jam Session running because he loves music. He said *it (music) cleanses my soul!*
3. A scared stranger I suppose, with an alcohol smell. *It's Friday, I don't want to be alone, I need people around me* Well... as they say, alcohol adds honesty in your statement.
4. A very unpredictable friend... *I don't know what I'll do next week, I don't even know what I'll do the day after tomorrow or this weekend* Apparently for some people planning is aching...
5. A confused friend, very rich of love and care; enough to be shared here in Wageningen. *I can, but I don't want to say stop because I see that you're truly happy!*
6. A basketball friend, in love with another place in the other part of the globe. *Wageningen is just a 'stopover', make the best of it and have fun!!*
7. *This is Wageningen, there's no such thing as love...*
8. A messy mind; negotiating with her ego, with her way of how things should operate. What to do? What to do? What to do? *It will end... yeah, but what won't?*
Wageningen life will end, sooner or later...
MAKS-24 Dinner in Period 4, 12 March 2010, @ Droef 41!
Lovely People!! Will really really miss those moments...
20 March 2010
March Arch
March is the start of the color and smell of spring (and yes, it will be my first experience of spring's beauty!). March is the start of Period 4 in my MAKS study (the new name of my MSc program is Master of Development and Rural Innovation, as per September 2010).
March is living my decision to focus my study in Rural Development Sociology and to dwell with intensive Anthropological and Governance readings and discussions. A failure to fulfill a workshop assignment in my 'Anthropology and Rural Development' class, ended up with being fortunate to receive the following thought from a wise classmate:
"Don't compare... and you will be able to fully express yourself. The universe is a massive puzzle and each one of us is a unique piece of that puzzle"
March is about being a bit frustrated on thinking about what to do for my Thesis instead of making time to start reading, reading, and reading... (favorite student paradox!).
But, March is also about re-thinking life, re-thinking my existence in life, re-thinking my thinking of life... March is also about the 'Arch' -- my undefined term of a character that introduced me to a good heart, a peaceful mind, and a sincere act.
March is living my decision to focus my study in Rural Development Sociology and to dwell with intensive Anthropological and Governance readings and discussions. A failure to fulfill a workshop assignment in my 'Anthropology and Rural Development' class, ended up with being fortunate to receive the following thought from a wise classmate:
"Don't compare... and you will be able to fully express yourself. The universe is a massive puzzle and each one of us is a unique piece of that puzzle"
March is about being a bit frustrated on thinking about what to do for my Thesis instead of making time to start reading, reading, and reading... (favorite student paradox!).
But, March is also about re-thinking life, re-thinking my existence in life, re-thinking my thinking of life... March is also about the 'Arch' -- my undefined term of a character that introduced me to a good heart, a peaceful mind, and a sincere act.
28 February 2010
24 February 2010
Jakarta is like sugar; the ants just keep on coming!
Finally found this piece again! Thanks to Pak Agung from Omah Sendok Restaurant!
The Jakarta Globe Newspaper
April 16, 2009
My Jakarta: Steisi Mileiva
Steisi Mileiva, 24, is a research assistant at the World Bank who recently made the move to Jakarta from the outlying city of Bogor. But the Bogor Agricultural University graduate could easily have taken an entirely different career path. After graduating with a degree in food science technology she was offered two jobs: the one she didn’t take as a television news reporter and the one she ultimately chose, which she says has given her a glimpse into the art of achieving progress in Jakarta.
So what do you do at the World Bank?
I work in coordination with the Ministry of National Education to help young drop-outs find pathways to employment. We work with the director general of nonformal and informal education to put high school and college-aged kids in short education programs: beauty, automotive, tailoring, computing and other vocational courses. The training providers are required to place the students in jobs after graduation.
When you’re not busy at the World Bank how do you like to spend your time?
I play basketball and I’m a member of the Metropolitan Toastmasters Club in Kuningan. I used to be involved in more activities when I lived in Bogor, but it was time to make the move and live on my own.
How did you decide to move to Jakarta?
I know it’s not far, only 2 hours, but I wanted to challenge myself and push my comfort level.
What do you miss in Bogor?
I was really active in my church and I was involved in all kinds of activities. I was in a choir — I miss that. We had some great moments. When you sing at a wedding you have the chance to make it beautiful for the couple. And during Christmas we would go to retirement homes and when we sang it would bring people to tears. I guess they miss the warm Christmas celebrations they used to enjoy with their families. I am looking for a choir like that here in Jakarta.
So you have a really good singing voice?
Not really. That’s why I sing with a choir.
Do people in Bogor have a certain perception of Jakarta?
Well, I think people know that if it’s greenery and trees they’re looking for they should come to Bogor, but if they want malls and museums, Jakarta is the place to be. Here is where the excitement is. You’re close to the decision makers. There are more job opportunities here. Jakarta is like sugar; the ants just keep on coming.
So whether Jakarta is the right city for you depends on where you are in your life?
People who are thinking about settling down and having a family usually say it’s more affordable to do it in Bogor or outside of Jakarta. School fees are cheaper and the quality of air is better because it’s less polluted.
When you’re not at the office is there a cafe or restaurant in Jakarta that you come back to again and again?
It’s not the place, it’s the people. You can be at a lousy cafe but have a great time as long as you surround yourself with the right people. I know this cafe near my boarding house, Omah Sendok in Jalan Taman Empu Sendok — it’s a cozy place with traditional food in a cafe-like setting. There’s nasi liwet [rice boiled in coconut milk] and bir pletok , a nonalcoholic drink made from different spices. You rarely see it in other cafes. It’s a traditional Betawi drink.
Working in education, is there anything you think should get more attention in the school system?
I personally like public speaking. I think that the Indonesian school system should place more emphasis on it. When you talk to kids who don’t attend international schools they are timid and afraid to say what’s on their mind. I have family members from all over the greater Jakarta area and when everyone gets together I am always the one who acts as emcee. For example, if it’s the birthday of one of my cousins , I want to give them a chance to have their say, but when I invite them up to talk into the microphone they’re shy. However, they are practicing. I keep encouraging my little cousins not to be scared when they are talking in front of groups of people.
How did you choose between a job at the World Bank and a job as a reporter?
I had an offer from Trans TV and an offer from the World Bank. I sought advice from family and friends and then sat down and thought about it myself. That was one of the biggest decisions in my life. I am happy with my job, but I will always be curious about the world of the TV reporter.
You seem happy with your decision. What have you gained from working at the World Bank?
I understand the government and how my country works. I’ve seen it from the inside because I work side by side with members of a ministry. I know why things take time and why programs aren’t easy to put into action. In preparing a project you can hire the most advanced technical expertise money can buy, but if the people don’t fit — like pieces of the Jakarta puzzle — it doesn’t work. Its an art.
Steisi Mileiva was talking to Zack Petersen.
The Jakarta Globe Newspaper
April 16, 2009
My Jakarta: Steisi Mileiva
Steisi Mileiva, 24, is a research assistant at the World Bank who recently made the move to Jakarta from the outlying city of Bogor. But the Bogor Agricultural University graduate could easily have taken an entirely different career path. After graduating with a degree in food science technology she was offered two jobs: the one she didn’t take as a television news reporter and the one she ultimately chose, which she says has given her a glimpse into the art of achieving progress in Jakarta.
So what do you do at the World Bank?
I work in coordination with the Ministry of National Education to help young drop-outs find pathways to employment. We work with the director general of nonformal and informal education to put high school and college-aged kids in short education programs: beauty, automotive, tailoring, computing and other vocational courses. The training providers are required to place the students in jobs after graduation.
When you’re not busy at the World Bank how do you like to spend your time?
I play basketball and I’m a member of the Metropolitan Toastmasters Club in Kuningan. I used to be involved in more activities when I lived in Bogor, but it was time to make the move and live on my own.
How did you decide to move to Jakarta?
I know it’s not far, only 2 hours, but I wanted to challenge myself and push my comfort level.
What do you miss in Bogor?
I was really active in my church and I was involved in all kinds of activities. I was in a choir — I miss that. We had some great moments. When you sing at a wedding you have the chance to make it beautiful for the couple. And during Christmas we would go to retirement homes and when we sang it would bring people to tears. I guess they miss the warm Christmas celebrations they used to enjoy with their families. I am looking for a choir like that here in Jakarta.
So you have a really good singing voice?
Not really. That’s why I sing with a choir.
Do people in Bogor have a certain perception of Jakarta?
Well, I think people know that if it’s greenery and trees they’re looking for they should come to Bogor, but if they want malls and museums, Jakarta is the place to be. Here is where the excitement is. You’re close to the decision makers. There are more job opportunities here. Jakarta is like sugar; the ants just keep on coming.
So whether Jakarta is the right city for you depends on where you are in your life?
People who are thinking about settling down and having a family usually say it’s more affordable to do it in Bogor or outside of Jakarta. School fees are cheaper and the quality of air is better because it’s less polluted.
When you’re not at the office is there a cafe or restaurant in Jakarta that you come back to again and again?
It’s not the place, it’s the people. You can be at a lousy cafe but have a great time as long as you surround yourself with the right people. I know this cafe near my boarding house, Omah Sendok in Jalan Taman Empu Sendok — it’s a cozy place with traditional food in a cafe-like setting. There’s nasi liwet [rice boiled in coconut milk] and bir pletok , a nonalcoholic drink made from different spices. You rarely see it in other cafes. It’s a traditional Betawi drink.
Working in education, is there anything you think should get more attention in the school system?
I personally like public speaking. I think that the Indonesian school system should place more emphasis on it. When you talk to kids who don’t attend international schools they are timid and afraid to say what’s on their mind. I have family members from all over the greater Jakarta area and when everyone gets together I am always the one who acts as emcee. For example, if it’s the birthday of one of my cousins , I want to give them a chance to have their say, but when I invite them up to talk into the microphone they’re shy. However, they are practicing. I keep encouraging my little cousins not to be scared when they are talking in front of groups of people.
How did you choose between a job at the World Bank and a job as a reporter?
I had an offer from Trans TV and an offer from the World Bank. I sought advice from family and friends and then sat down and thought about it myself. That was one of the biggest decisions in my life. I am happy with my job, but I will always be curious about the world of the TV reporter.
You seem happy with your decision. What have you gained from working at the World Bank?
I understand the government and how my country works. I’ve seen it from the inside because I work side by side with members of a ministry. I know why things take time and why programs aren’t easy to put into action. In preparing a project you can hire the most advanced technical expertise money can buy, but if the people don’t fit — like pieces of the Jakarta puzzle — it doesn’t work. Its an art.
Steisi Mileiva was talking to Zack Petersen.
22 February 2010
You Don't Listen!
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I told you to let go
but you don't listen...
I told you to forget
but you don't listen...
I told you to look another way
but you don't listen...
I am PAIN
and I always give you those options
You always hear me,
but you don't listen!
04 February 2010
Rambling-1: Etnography
It says that the power of etnography is its openness. It enables the readers to capture and to question the complexity of the realities the writer pretend to know.
Reality is constructed, so writing an etnography piece is about constructing the constructed reality. In another book about etnography, it says this triple layers: to understand the understood understanding!
Reality is constructed, so writing an etnography piece is about constructing the constructed reality. In another book about etnography, it says this triple layers: to understand the understood understanding!
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